Until God ordains otherwise, a man ought to bear patiently whatever he cannot correct in himself and in others. Imitation of Christ by John Kempis

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HURTING IN CHURCH

Hurting In The Church

A way Forward For Wounded Catholics

By Fr. Thomas Berg

“HURTING IN THE CHURCH”

It has been 40 years later and I find myself still healing.  I was a leader of a charismatic prayer meeting in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida.  First mistake putting me a, 33 year-old baby Christian, in leadership.  The scripture warns not to put babies in leader-ship.  To be fair the seminary did not teach their priests well enough.   Proof we are all learning.  I had read that it was good to sit before Jesus on the alter and pray and listen.  I began to meditate immediately, I felt a powerful presence of God.  I was taken into hell and I saw a small cylinder and looking down it was like stone people.  Suddenly Satan came down and turned into fire and filled the cylinder.  Immediately I was taken up into a room with a small child playing.  I knew it was my first child that I lost.  Then I went into another place where I saw a beautiful palace with no walls and I knew it was going to be my home, after death.  Later I learned that the walls weren’t there because I was not protected by my own prayers and others.  I was wide open for attacks of the devil.  Then I was taken into a pink and blue cloud and I could not move when God Spoke.  I was overcome by Gods mighty power almost to not being able to breath.  God said, “Cure the sick, Heal the brokenhearted and anoint my little ones.”  It was amazing!  I then went over from the chapel to Mass.  It was a Charismatic Mass.   It was during the peace be with you part of the Mass that the priest came down off the alter to wish us all peace.  When he came to me he gave me a passionate kiss on the mouth.  I was devastated and blamed myself.  I went to morning Mass without make-up and the Handmaids of the Sacred Heart were at Mass.  They came from another parish and I attended their bible study.  They came over to me and ask to come to their home for breakfast.  When I went they began to tell me that one of the other leaders of the prayer meeting had told them that I had proposed marriage to the Pastor of my church.  The priest that kissed me told this lie.  I told them how devasted and shocked that a priest would do such a thing to me.  They said that it is not the first time these things happen in the church.  I remember how stupid it made me feel.  I was so young and did not realize that he was human.   I know now how stupid it was to blame myself.  The real dilemma was my daughter was being confirmed soon after and I was not able to attend.  My husband took my daughter for her confirmation.  When the priest saw my husband he ran off the altar. Thank God my husband knew everything and trusted me.  This was such a humiliation for me.  They moved the priest to another church away and we moved to another town and I continued to go to the Catholic Church.

I have not shared about my abuse in writing but now I am confirming that the book HURTING IN THE CHURCH A Way Forward for Wounded Catholics by Fr. Thomas Berg is a message of love from God.  In 2015 I began to write www.woundedinourmidst.com for the persecuted and wounded people in the church and all who need God.  I wanted to share do not leave God because of something that someone of the church has done to hurt you.  Three years later a friend sent me a Catholic magazine that said wounded in the church, it had reminded her of my blog.  It was an article about Fr. Thomas Berg’s book “Hurting In The Church.”  Fr.Berg has written about his own hurt and betrayal and takes us on his journey for inner healing.  Which has allowed him understanding of our wounds, which he defends us all.  He questions in the book why evil is being swept under the rug and hidden.  This has given me so much hope and affirmed me in my quest to bring people back to the church, that have been alienated or abused.

Healing, understanding and forgiveness are the only attitudes that will heal the church.  Come back all you who are using persecution as an excuse to leave God.  You have been deceived.  Help those of us that are trying to bring change one day at a time

https://www.nationalreview.com/2017/04/catholic-church-and-abuse-father-thomas-berg-discusses-his-book/

Please click above for the National Reviews interview with Fr. Thomas Berg

Heal our HARDENED Hearts

HEAL OUR HARDENED HEARTS

What causes our hearts to harden?  I have written this blog because I hurt deeply for the wonded in our midst that cannot open to the wonderful love of God.  Their wounds are deep from;

Their sexual bounderies broken.

Abusive parents or spouse.

Betrayal of a good friend, spouse or religious.

We all have had hurts.  Some of us close our hearts and say no one will ever hurt me again.  We put up walls and become very angry.  Our hearts become closed and hardened.  Fear is all we know.  Leaving no place for Love, Peace, Joy, Hope or any of the wonderful feelings of the Holy Spirit.  It leaves no room for Jesus in our hearts.  We cannot love or feel loved because we are closed.  Jesus said , I knock at the door,  all we have to do is open it to have joy.  God is always trying to make it better and we cannot even see it.  We are blinded by anger.  God is making an effort to help, hoping that we open our hearts.  We cannot bring ourselves to trust in his merciful love for us.  We missed the fact that He gave his son to die for our sins.  We just expect the worst.  Make an effort to give up Bitternes, Anger, Dispare, and all the other fruits of the devil that you use to feeling daily.  Surrender to God and repent and turn around and recieve all the good God has waiting for you.

FIRST COMMANDMENT

Hear O’Isreal the Lord God is lord alone. You  shall love the Lord your God with all your heard, with all y our soul, with all your mind and with all your strength.

We are suppose to focus only on God nothing else and LOVE with;

All your SOUL

This means no stain on your soul for too long.  Repent immediately go to confession often.  Remember to guard yourself from all evil.  Love everyone for God is in them.  Be totally alive.  Let the Holy Spirit bring all the fruits and gifts to remain with you. Spend silent time with God alone to worship and listen to his word.

All your HEART

No hardened heart but a open heart that nurtures without reservation.  Total giving of attention, time, and understanding.  Searching only for God alone.

All your MIND

Renew our mind with positive thinking.  Work hard on breaking old habits of negative thinking. Ignoring your imagination and trusting the word of God in making good judgements.  Looking at the fruits of the Holy Spirit to be your attitude.

All your STRENGTH

Never give up on good.  It takes lots of strength to Love God at all times.  Turning to God and trusting in His Powerful protection, will give you all the strength you need.

METANOIA Greek for repentence

a change of mind

a change of heart

a change of life

We never outgrow the need for Metonoia

Matthew 4:10   “You shall worship the lord your God; and him alone shall your serve”

What or who in your life is getting in the way of a right relationship with God?

Lord Free us to Love you completely, Make us Holy in all our ways, Soften our hearts, Renew our minds with your truth, strengthen us by your Holy Spirit to serve you alone.  I ask this in Jesus Name. amen

WOUNDED CHARISMATIC’S CHRISTIANS IN THE CHURCH

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Acts 2

The Holy Spirit Comes at Pentecost

When the day of Pentecost came, they were all together in one place. Suddenly a sound like the blowing of a violent wind came from heaven and filled the whole house where they were sitting. They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them. All of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit enabled them.

Now there were staying in Jerusalem God-fearing Jews from every nation under heaven. When they heard this sound, a crowd came together in bewilderment, because each one heard their own language being spoken. Utterly amazed, they asked: “Aren’t all these who are speaking Galileans? Then how is it that each of us hears them in our native language? Parthians, Medes and Elamites; residents of Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, [b] 10 Phrygia and Pamphylia, Egypt and the parts of Libya near Cyrene; visitors from Rome 11 (both Jews and converts to Judaism); Cretans and Arabs—we hear them declaring the wonders of God in our own tongues!” 12 Amazed and perplexed, they asked one another, “What does this mean?”

13 Some, however, made fun of them and said, “They have had too much wine.”

The scripture is very clear on how the Apostles increased in number and filled the church all over the world. It was by being full of the fruits and gifts of the Holy Spirit. There were miracles, healings, prophecy, words of knowledge to guide there followers. Speaking in tongues was accepted as by all.

Isaiah 55: 7-8

7 Let the wicked forsake their way,

and sinners their thoughts;

Let them turn to the LORD to find mercy;

to our God, who is generous in forgiving.

 

8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

nor are your ways my ways

Gods Spirit is not normal it is the real truth. It is not church traditions, and cannot be put into a box. It will cause controversy and stir communication and change. Wonder if the Apostles would ever have guessed that the church, they started would loose so much touch with God’s Holy Spirit. Also persecute the Spirit filled and treat them as the Jewish leaders did Jesus.

In the 1970’s there was a move of the Holy Spirit that touched many Christians of all religions. It was a time of real confusion on the role of women, church teaching, morality, and real rebellion to any traditions in our country. The media played a role in selling every manner of evil in movies and T.V. Our church leaders were fearful to speak against anything, for fear of upsetting anyone with the truth. So God poured out his Holy Spirit on a select few of the church. Many church leaders were fearful and refused to accept it as a move of God. All religions spoke against speaking in tongues and other manifestations of the Holy Spirit. It was the same persecutions as in the time of Jesus.

Charismatics were left with searching out teachings from any religion that talked about the Holy Spirits fruits and manifestations of the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Since all religions think they are the only truth, much confusion and strife was stirred by pointing out the flaws of certain religious traditions.   Many Charismatics became arrogant and defensive trying to be heard and understood and not ridiculed. They received abusive comments or were ignored completely.   Some just left religion totally saying they did not need organized religion.

The Spirit Filled (Charismatic) were feared by many and left without shepherds to guide and teach them. They were left to learning from anywhere that claimed to be knowledgeable and were accepting of them.   Some Pastors said that all Charismatics were crazy and so the clergy sent the mentally ill into their prayer meetings. These church leaders would say if it is from God it will last. What a cop out!!!!   Making fun and mocking the Charismatics and avoiding the Spirit Filled person was commonplace. Do any of these Pastors feel the loss of Charismatics in their churches now? Everyone struggles and prayes for acceptance. No one likes to be treated like they do not exist or that they are evil. Why did these church leaders allow the Life in the Spirit Seminars if they did not want Spirit Filled Christians in their churches? Were they confused too? What ever their reasons, it wounded many.

There were Charismatic retreats and Charismatic conferences that had teachings, consolation and healing. However when they went back to their churches, they received the same attitude and abusive treatment.

As the years went by the conferences went from 5000 to 500. There were no more prayer meetings in the churches to be found. The remnant now has a hard time finding Spirit Filled Fellowship. One person was told they were not allowed to speak in tongues at a life in the spirit seminar. How can these Pastors make such rules and call themselves Christians?

The Conferences now are few and 300 or less attend, mostly senior citizens. Where are the young? Why have Church leaders regarded this move of Holy Spirit so terrible? Don’t they see what has happened to this world by such overwhelming evil? Why would anyone want to get rid of the move of the Holy Spirit out of fear?

The remnant left now does not upset any church leaders and walks in constant fear of offending the powerful pastor. The Holy Spirit does not go where it is not wanted and therefore no fruits of the Holy Spirit are present.

Charismatics should have been thankful for those who made them humble instead of leaving the church. It should never be forgotten that Jesus was envied and crucified for radical thoughts of loving others. It is hard to understand jealous Christian leaders but obedience is the core of holiness. We must all pray for good attitudes and humble responses to religious cruelty. Father forgive them for they know not what they do.

First John 3:17 “But if anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him?”

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