My church is not listening to me. They have their own agenda and it is not to do with me. It is to do with the world and its agenda. Where are my shepherds? Why have they abandoned me with the agenda of the world. I will destroy all that has been built. My waiting is over! If you think you are above persecution, read my word. I am allowing all to fall it is over. Repent before it is too late. You do evil where you think no one sees. I see and my patience has run out. I have waited so long and you have continued in your evil. Now is the time for sorrow and painful regrets. Stop before it is too late and all is lost.
CONFESSIONS OF A CHURCH REJECT
I am disconnected from the church community. I am liked every where but church community. I am excluded from the community of believers. I know that God is showing me how others feel when they enter a church. I do have many prayer partners and have my blog www.woundedinourmidst.com , WOW women of wisdom podcast with Ellen Mongan do 2 hours of prayer a day and mentor and I am mentored by them.
I have just returned from my vacation to visit my daughter. On my way home there was 12 hours to think and plan my days. I have been going downtown to a church that is beautiful and has priests that give good sermons. My husband and I believe in being friendly with everyone around us and we have such good conversations with the young couples. We also pray for everyone of them. The church has mass at 12:00 noon for daily mass. It is hard to go to daily mass because the of parking is a problem and can be costly. We have a church close to us, we do not feel welcome. I made the mistake of going in and introducing myself, when we moved there 5 years ago. I took a video of a Christian t.v. program that I had made earlier in the year to show the priest. The priest is from Poland and he said to give it to the church secretary and she would tell him about it. I then was ignored and my husband was too. Not sure what happened but I guess I was not humble enough. Anyway this is a pattern everywhere. I call it a DISCONNECT. The priests at the other church even wrote a article about people who nag, because I had been excited and tried to tell him about a great book called, the friendship project. When I finished telling him he walk away and said nothing. I got the message that I am an aggravation. He then let me know in his article ,he writes in bulletin , that I was a nag. He mentioned about someone telling him about a book, who was nagging. So back to coming home and making plans for my spiritual life. I decided that daily mass was important to go everyday. So I made the decision to go to the church that is close to my home for daily mass no matter how we were treated. So my husband and I went today. They did not remember us and that was good. I would have loved to finish my prayers after mass but they were going to say the rosary. So I decided to leave and go home and finish my prayers. I got a sarcastic remark “God Bless you”, for not staying. It hurts me deeply to receive such rejection, but contrary to what they think of me, I know God loves me.
I am writing this with total forgiveness. Please do not think that I am angry. I am in great pain about those who are hurting and not returning to the church because of the Disconnect. I am a firm believer in THE TRUTH SETS YOU FREE. Jesus said FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO.
Everyday I meet many who are unchurched. My family members also, who have left because of how I was treated through the years. They just do not want the drama and are turned off by the disconnect.
This pains my heart for all those whose families believe as mine and do not go to church.
I have written about hardened hearts in my previous blogs but now I am writing about DISCONNECT. So here are some of the disconnects I see in the body of Christ.
The people in church come and go and do not feel the need to know anyone, do anything, give more than $1.00 or even give nothing .
One ministry in the church does not interact with another ministry only to compete.
Religious education for children does not include parents at same time.
Older members not connected with the younger members.
Parishioners only take and are not expected to give. When they give and it is not accepted.
Do not upset anyone with the truth! FEAR
Only the perfect are accepted in church. All others are rejected.
Present Leadership does not prepare the young for leadership and the ministry dies on the vine.
Priests fear of new people so only the click stays and runs anyone new off.
Leadership taken for granted no gratitude just criticism, causing discouragement. Priests and Laity
I have been praying for 2 seminarians for over a year and I wrote and told them. Never heard back. Why?
No one likes to be taken for granted even our priests. We must try harder as a church to be more welcoming and not so fearful. I was baptized in the Holy Spirit 40 years ago by a exorcist priest. I then was called Charismatic. After moving then mistreated and judged. I was thrown out to the wolves without a shepherd to help me. No spiritual direction to tell me about my prophetic gifts, and God took care of me. God is still leading me. I will continue to write how I feel and do as God calls me. After all these years I finally have been given a spiritual director. Pray for Sr. Nancy Christopher, to help me. This has helped me feel apart of the church.
Body of Christ
The upper cervical holds the head onto the body and if it is disconnected from the head, all of the body is totally out of whack. All types of illness occurs. The Body of Christ needs healing. We should never take for granted our leadership and let them go astray. We should connect to them and say how we feel. We should not let them go astray and believe the worlds teachings. We should encourage them to be strong and fight for the truth. We should fight for the truth. The ten commandments should be their law not intellectual mumbo jumbo. Encourage them to have common sense. Scriptures says that in end times even the elect will become deceived. We must be prayerful people and not be deceived. We should not get a big head if we are called to lead in the church and stay there forever. We should always look for ones to encourage to be able to take our place in leadership and support them forever.
Why I am writing, is to encourage change in the BAD attitude of disconnect into HEALTHY CONNECTEDNESS with everyone no matter who they are, just like Jesus did.
Proverbs 13:12 Hope deferred makes the heart sick but a longing fulfilled is the tree of life.”
When leadership loses hope for any reason the Body of Christ is sick. It is all about perspective. When we rise above the storm, all is bright and sunny. Let the eyes of Christ body show you the truth. Ask Mary to heal your heart and replace it with her immaculate heart.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil to give you a future and hope.