Until God ordains otherwise, a man ought to bear patiently whatever he cannot correct in himself and in others. Imitation of Christ by John Kempis

Archive for August, 2018

What Do You Accept



What you do matters but not much?  What you are matters tremendously.  Catherine Doherty

In these extraordinary times.  So many are believing what they admire and revere allows them to ignore sin in their lives.  We have a false sense of superiority.  I believe that is why God is not needed in so many of our lives as Christians.  We think we are God and we are above sin

Not too long ago I was going to my High School reunion of 50 years.  I had reconnected with some old High School friends on facebook. It was so much fun to see and hear from them.  Yet I saw a bragging and comparing that shocked me.  It occurred to me that some were comparing how old others looked compared to them.  Everyone looking for a way to be better that the other.  Look at my status.  How sad that they were not looking for the Godliness of each other especially at this age.  I met one women from school in Sams Club and she said it made her sick the way we were talking about God all the time on facebook,  She was referring to me.  It was sad to see that she was still very unkind and rude and had not changed after all these years.

Who do you accept as part of your inner circle?  Do you accept them if they have a title.  Or do you make sure that you have titles so that you can lord it over others?

I saw a really cool picture of a brown egg and a white egg used to explain the differences in skin color.  When they cracked the egg open, they both were the same.  I loved that it showed we are the same even though we appear different on outside

That is the message of this article, we are all the same and hurt inside the same.  I write for my own healing.  It helps me to explain my thoughts and feelings.  I then have inner healing.  My hope is that you are healed also.

Here is a list of examples where we exclude others;

Only accept your nationality and exclude everyone else

Only accept those of your religion

Only accept those who are your political party

No accepting your spouses mother by making fun or pointing out faults to embarrass your partner.

Leaving out Older or younger people out because of their age

Teachers that work hard are ridiculed and feared by those that don’t do their jobs

Exclude those who are new

When someone has goodness exclude them

When you think someone is smarter or not at smart as you

Looking down on poor, or anyone you perceive to be less affluent.

Thinking you are responsible for what God has done for you, and judging others with bad luck as lesser

Bully’s try to bring down the good because of there own feelings of fear and anger.  No one likes a bully and they also do not want them to hurt them.  ,We see bullying in Church leadership.  It has no place but we see it. When we see Aggressivenes,Scowling and critical attitude in our relations, with our friends or subordinates, it is bullying.

On facebook , a Teacher showed the class 6 shiny apples, all looked good.  She earlier had taken one of the apples and thrown it on the floor many times.  When class started she started passing 5 of the apples around and told the kids to say nice things to the apples.  Then she took the one she had thrown on floor, they did not know this , and told them to say mean things to the apple.  When they had finished she cut all the apples open.  The one they said bad things to was all bruised inside.  She then told them that is what bullying does to our insides.  No one could see that the apple was bruised from the outside.  She then said it hurts on inside but we cannot see it on the outside.


1John 4: 18

There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment, and so one who fears is not yet perfect in love.

If we are hurt over and over again we begin to fear everyone.  We react negatively. We allow others to control our lives because of fear.  We loose ourselves and our self esteem along with it.  It is not good to let self pity take over our thoughts.  I go to confession if I see myself being controlled by negative thoughts and fearing what others think about me.   Winston Churchill said “ You have enemies?  Good that means you’ve stood up for something, sometime in your life.  A lot of people are afraid to tell the truth, to say no.  That’s where toughness comes into play.  Toughness is not being a bully.  It’s having a backbone.

Philippians 4:8

8 Finally, brothers, let your minds be filled with everything that is true, everything that is honorable, everything that is upright and pure, everything that we love and admire — with whatever is good and praiseworthy.

We are all insecure some way or another.  The devil has known you from birth and knows how to push your buttons.  We must resist the devil and he will flee.  So the above scripture is for you to remember about yourself.  Here is what you say,

I am worthy and a success because I am smart.  Even if others reject me I will not believe them.  I am confident and will not compare myself to anyone.  I am good enough for everything and everyone in my life.  I will no longer listen to other’s words with the wounded child that lives in me, who needs acceptance and love.  I am a Saint, Chosen, Holy, Dearly Loved by God.


Self-deprecating is often disguised as humility and that is a lie.  God’s word say “I do all things through God who strengthens me” Philippians 4:13.  What do you tell yourself, this is more important than what others call you.  Are you too young like Jeremiah?  Do you have a speech impediment like Moses, How about too old, too stupid without degree and the self deprecating can go on and on.  How long will you continue to accept your own self abuse.  Who is the accuser?  Who loves us just as we are flaws and all?  Do not believe you are not good enough.  You are Worthy, Intelligent, Competent, Confident and totally sufficient in everyway.  Does that make you feel uncomfortable?  Accept that you are perfect for what God has chosen you to do for him.  However, do not get overly full of yourself and forget that God has done it all and you need to continue to turn to Him.

“By the grace of God I am what I am.” 1 Corinthians 15:10

Everything you have is for Gods Glory.

If you are different GOOD, it has a very important purpose.

Who makes you different from anyone else?  What do you have that you did not receive?  And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not? 1 Corinthians 4:7

So do not get puffed up if you are in favor and do not get discouraged if your being persecuted.  Stay balanced and know where everything you have comes.  Success comes in many different ways.  God is a God of surprises.m




My church is not listening to me.  They have their own agenda and it is not to do with me.  It is to do with the world and its agenda. Where are my shepherds?  Why have they abandoned me with the agenda of the world.  I will destroy all that has been built.  My waiting is over!  If you think you are above persecution, read my word.  I am allowing all to fall it is over.  Repent before it is too late.  You do evil where you think no one sees.  I see and my patience has run out.  I have waited so long and you have continued in your evil.  Now is the time for sorrow and painful regrets.  Stop before it is too late and all is lost.


I am disconnected from the church community.  I am liked every where but church community.  I am excluded from the community of believers.  I know that God is showing me how others feel when they enter a church.  I do have many prayer partners and have my blog www.woundedinourmidst.com , WOW women of wisdom podcast with Ellen Mongan do 2 hours of prayer a day and mentor and I am mentored by them.

I have just returned from my vacation to visit my daughter.  On my way home there was 12 hours to think and plan my days.  I have been going downtown to a church that is beautiful and has priests that give good sermons.  My husband and I believe in being friendly with everyone around us and we have such good conversations with the young couples. We also pray for everyone of them. The church has mass at 12:00 noon for daily mass.  It is hard to go to daily mass because the of parking is a problem and can be costly.  We have a church close to us, we do not feel welcome.  I made the mistake of going in and introducing myself, when we moved there 5 years ago.  I took a video of a Christian t.v. program that I had made earlier in the year to show the priest.  The priest is from Poland and he said to give it to the church secretary and she would tell him about it.  I then was ignored and my husband was too.  Not sure what happened but I guess I was not humble enough.  Anyway this is a pattern everywhere.  I call it a DISCONNECT. The priests at the other church even wrote a article about people who nag, because I had been excited and tried to tell him about a great book called, the friendship project.  When I finished telling him he walk away and said nothing.  I got the message that I am an aggravation.  He then let me know in his article ,he writes in bulletin , that I was a nag.  He mentioned about someone telling him about a book, who was nagging.   So back to coming home and making plans for my spiritual life.  I decided that daily mass was important to go everyday.  So I made the decision to go to the church that is close to my home for daily mass no matter how we were treated.  So my husband and I went today.   They did not remember us and that was good.  I would have loved to finish my prayers after mass but they were going to say the rosary.  So I decided to leave and go home and finish my prayers.  I got a sarcastic remark “God Bless you”, for not staying.  It hurts me deeply to receive such rejection, but contrary to what they think of me, I know God loves me.

I am writing this with total forgiveness.  Please do not think that I am angry.  I am in great pain about those who are hurting and not returning to the church because of the Disconnect.  I am a firm believer in THE TRUTH SETS YOU FREE.  Jesus said FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO.

Everyday I meet many who are unchurched.  My family members also, who have left because of how I was treated through the years.  They just do not want the drama and are turned off by the disconnect.

This pains my heart for all those whose families believe as mine and do not go to church.


I have written about hardened hearts in my previous blogs but now I am writing about DISCONNECT.  So here are some of the disconnects I see in the body of Christ.

The people in church come and go and do not feel the need to know anyone, do anything,  give more than $1.00 or even give nothing .

One ministry in the church does not interact with another ministry only to compete.

Religious education for children does not include parents at same time.

Older members not connected with the younger members.

Parishioners only take and are not expected to give.  When they give and it is not accepted.

Do not upset anyone with the truth!    FEAR

Only the perfect are accepted in church.  All others are rejected.

Present Leadership does not prepare the young for leadership and the ministry dies on the vine.

Priests fear of new people so only the click stays and runs anyone new off.

Leadership taken for granted no gratitude just criticism, causing discouragement. Priests and Laity

I have been praying for 2 seminarians for over a year and I wrote and told them.  Never heard back. Why?

No one likes to be taken for granted even our priests.  We must try harder as a church to be more welcoming and not so fearful.  I was baptized in the Holy Spirit 40 years ago by a exorcist priest.  I then was called Charismatic. After moving then mistreated and judged.  I was thrown out to the wolves without a shepherd to help me. No spiritual direction to tell me about my prophetic gifts, and God took care of me.  God is still leading me.  I will continue to write how I feel and do as God calls me.  After all these years I finally have been given a spiritual director.  Pray for Sr. Nancy Christopher, to help me.  This has helped me feel apart of the church.


Body of Christ

The upper cervical holds the head onto the body and if it is disconnected from the head, all of the body is totally out of whack.  All types of illness occurs.   The Body of Christ needs healing.  We should never take for granted our leadership and let them go astray.  We should connect to them and say how we feel.  We should not let them go astray and believe the worlds teachings.  We should encourage them to be strong and fight for the truth.  We should fight for the truth.  The ten commandments should be their law not intellectual mumbo jumbo.  Encourage them to have common sense.  Scriptures says that in end times even the elect will become deceived.  We must be prayerful people and not be deceived.  We should not get a big head if we are called to lead in the church and stay there forever.  We should always look for ones to encourage to be able to take our place in leadership and support them forever.

Why I am writing, is to encourage change in the BAD attitude of disconnect into HEALTHY CONNECTEDNESS with everyone no matter who they are, just like Jesus did.

Proverbs 13:12  Hope deferred makes the heart sick but a longing fulfilled is the tree of life.”

When leadership loses hope for any reason the Body of Christ is sick.  It is all about perspective.  When we rise above the storm, all is bright and sunny.  Let the eyes of Christ body show you the truth.  Ask Mary to heal your heart and replace it with her immaculate heart.

Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil to give you a future and hope.

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