Hurting In The Church
A way Forward For Wounded Catholics
By Fr. Thomas Berg
“HURTING IN THE CHURCH”
It has been 40 years later and I find myself still healing. I was a leader of a charismatic prayer meeting in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. First mistake putting me a, 33 year-old baby Christian, in leadership. The scripture warns not to put babies in leader-ship. To be fair the seminary did not teach their priests well enough. Proof we are all learning. I had read that it was good to sit before Jesus on the alter and pray and listen. I began to meditate immediately, I felt a powerful presence of God. I was taken into hell and I saw a small cylinder and looking down it was like stone people. Suddenly Satan came down and turned into fire and filled the cylinder. Immediately I was taken up into a room with a small child playing. I knew it was my first child that I lost. Then I went into another place where I saw a beautiful palace with no walls and I knew it was going to be my home, after death. Later I learned that the walls weren’t there because I was not protected by my own prayers and others. I was wide open for attacks of the devil. Then I was taken into a pink and blue cloud and I could not move when God Spoke. I was overcome by Gods mighty power almost to not being able to breath. God said, “Cure the sick, Heal the brokenhearted and anoint my little ones.” It was amazing! I then went over from the chapel to Mass. It was a Charismatic Mass. It was during the peace be with you part of the Mass that the priest came down off the alter to wish us all peace. When he came to me he gave me a passionate kiss on the mouth. I was devastated and blamed myself. I went to morning Mass without make-up and the Handmaids of the Sacred Heart were at Mass. They came from another parish and I attended their bible study. They came over to me and ask to come to their home for breakfast. When I went they began to tell me that one of the other leaders of the prayer meeting had told them that I had proposed marriage to the Pastor of my church. The priest that kissed me told this lie. I told them how devasted and shocked that a priest would do such a thing to me. They said that it is not the first time these things happen in the church. I remember how stupid it made me feel. I was so young and did not realize that he was human. I know now how stupid it was to blame myself. The real dilemma was my daughter was being confirmed soon after and I was not able to attend. My husband took my daughter for her confirmation. When the priest saw my husband he ran off the altar. Thank God my husband knew everything and trusted me. This was such a humiliation for me. They moved the priest to another church away and we moved to another town and I continued to go to the Catholic Church.
I have not shared about my abuse in writing but now I am confirming that the book HURTING IN THE CHURCH A Way Forward for Wounded Catholics by Fr. Thomas Berg is a message of love from God. In 2015 I began to write www.woundedinourmidst.com for the persecuted and wounded people in the church and all who need God. I wanted to share do not leave God because of something that someone of the church has done to hurt you. Three years later a friend sent me a Catholic magazine that said wounded in the church, it had reminded her of my blog. It was an article about Fr. Thomas Berg’s book “Hurting In The Church.” Fr.Berg has written about his own hurt and betrayal and takes us on his journey for inner healing. Which has allowed him understanding of our wounds, which he defends us all. He questions in the book why evil is being swept under the rug and hidden. This has given me so much hope and affirmed me in my quest to bring people back to the church, that have been alienated or abused.
Healing, understanding and forgiveness are the only attitudes that will heal the church. Come back all you who are using persecution as an excuse to leave God. You have been deceived. Help those of us that are trying to bring change one day at a time
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